1.1.11

1.1.11

Ah, the new year is finally hear.  Yes, the number 2010 is gone, however it’s still a Saturday night - just now with a new number.  With that people see it as a clean slate, which we all do...but realistically is the new year a clean slate or something we have tricked ourselves into believing?

Humans naturally like to deceive ourselves and paint a pretty picture, even if the reality is brutal.  So with that let me just point out, I’m not a bitch I just don’t have a tolerance for bullshit.  I get that I’ve “painted the picture” that 2011 is a new start, however I am perfectly aware it’s an excuse to make me happy - thus it works.

With the “New” slate, here’s how my year is going to start and so help me, don’t get in my way, I’m on a mission.  Let these be known as my resolutions.

1. To follow through with things.
2. Say yes.
3. Live.

Sounds simple huh?  Yeah well, sounds...

As for my follow through, let’s just say this is HUGE.  I have a ton of things to do, and often times I get so much going on that I must put something else on hold.  Case in point, my bootcamp classes.  I am so busy with work, my family, and school - that I slacked off.  In the end I’m ultimately hurting myself.  I’m queen of starting small tasks at the house (note the “s” on tasks) and due to that some may still be deemed pending.  Yep, this year I’m going to be a closer.  

Saying yes.  Seriously, how many times do we make excuses and say no?  “Destiny, come out and have lunch with me so we can catch up?”  I’ve had my girlfriends ask this, and due to time and other excuses I’ve said no.  Say yes.  Life is too short and to look back later in life (if I’m blessed to live that long) I don’t want to have any of those “I should have moments” - I already have 2 or 3 of them and they suck, but you know what, I’m okay with that - but no more.  I’ll say yes if my family wants me to come back to Pikeville to visit, I’ll say yes to happy hour with friends, I’ll say yes when my daughter wants to stay up 10 minutes later and paint her toenails...why?  It’s about those moments.  Moments are memories, and when we say no, we lose moments.

Live.  I’ve really been in thought with the whole idea and concept of living.  How we all live and our definition of living is a spectrum of opinions.  If anything in 2010, I began to live again, and it was like I had been asleep for the past 8 years.  “To live, doesn’t mean your alive.”  The ho-hum everyday routine is fun, and comforting, however it’s being alive, are you living?  I began to live again in 2010 and am vowing to continue the same from here on out - kinda goes with my “yes” thing.  And just a note, if you don’t like how I am living then “live your life” how you want and leave me to mine.  I only have one person that will judge and how me  accountable to with my actions and how I choose to live, and that’s God.  You worry about you and I’m going to do me, ok?  

Cheers to 2011 and what’s to come!